Friday, February 27, 2009
she teared and all i could do was to look at her with "helplessness" appearing all over my mind and of course, my face. so so SO helpless.
i don't know how to dish out comfort like it's something i do everyday cause i don't know how it felt like receiving it. i hide in the corner and gloom about the situation until I'm ready to face the world (one of the surest way to get depression, trust me.).
i wonder if i made the right decision at that time, even if with right intention. I'm confused. i don't know if i could make a right judgment about things again. my perception, my thoughts seems to be in a mess right now. too much emotions, too many sides of a story. who do i trust? am i part of a game being played by them?
who can i seek to rant at? who can anyone seek to let out their frustrations and angst? who can anyone seek to really empathize their situation?
but, do we really need that someone? do we need someone else besides ourselves?
ARGH! i dunno anymore! i dunno if i wanna care anymore....... not the time to do so anyway.
m&v
-feelings inside ;