
Friday, February 27, 2009
she teared and all i could do was to look at her with "helplessness" appearing all over my mind and of course, my face. so so SO helpless.
i don't know how to dish out comfort like it's something i do everyday cause i don't know how it felt like receiving it. i hide in the corner and gloom about the situation until I'm ready to face the world (one of the surest way to get depression, trust me.).
i wonder if i made the right decision at that time, even if with right intention. I'm confused. i don't know if i could make a right judgment about things again. my perception, my thoughts seems to be in a mess right now. too much emotions, too many sides of a story. who do i trust? am i part of a game being played by them?
who can i seek to rant at? who can anyone seek to let out their frustrations and angst? who can anyone seek to really empathize their situation?
but, do we really need that someone? do we need someone else besides ourselves?
ARGH! i dunno anymore! i dunno if i wanna care anymore....... not the time to do so anyway.
m&v
-feelings inside ;
Sunday, February 15, 2009
"how do you mend a broken heart~~~ woo woo woo~~"
off to a pub for maaaaaaaaagarrrrrrritas and silly games! throw in sailor moon dating mooing froggie in the well and arrange a meeting for pokemon with sadako and sing a song annnnnnnD you will get a concotion
-feelings inside ;
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
another day just went by like that and what was i doing? lazing the day way. hai... i better stop lamenting about things when i have done nothing to improve the situation. i think i really suck at getting myself together to work hard for anything. i guess when you have nothing that you want, you will not be motivated, right?
argh. i don't know anymore.
-feelings inside ;