Thursday, August 31, 2006
ouch.. ouch... but the truth hurts. it's not as if i do not know this horrible flaw of mine along with being habitually late and unable to keep up with my promises. and i cant seem to have the motivation to get out of bed early. but it really sucks when someone else tells you outright. really sucks big time. other times, when my dear friends tried telling me about it, they sugar-coated their words. it makes me wonder how vulunerable do i portray myself as?
there's alot of things that i have done which makes me feel stupid and i HATE that feeling. really, really hate it. like i'm some useless idiot bumming my life away. which is the truth now, since i cant make up my mind what i'm working for, what is worth working for and what do i want in the end. i feel inferior when i see my friends enter courses they want in local unis... it was my dream to walk that path they are on now... but now i can say to myself is dream on. i keep having the wrong attitude towards what i do till i deviate further and further from what i used to want... yup, used to want because i gave up wanting them when i realised i was too far off track.
man, i feel like a loser moaning about things i fail to do and gave up. i really do not know how much longer can i stay in this rat race and how longer can i keep up with it. because every step i take, everyone else are taking three steps at the same time. the disparity keeps getting larger and larger, and it keeps getting harder and harder. the temptation to give up keeps getting bigger and bigger.
but the race is not over yet, there's still a very long way to go. and i plan to stick through it, even though it's going to be hell to do it.
-feelings inside ;
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
hmmm..... been up to nothing naughty lately, life is kind of boring these days going to school, study and going for tuition. tuition has been good, one of my tuition kids not only pass but got over 60 for her maths. it's pretty amazing, given the fact she hardly pass this subject. cool... but she demands for painty and sweets... specifically impact sweets and yellow painty... kids nowadays have high class perferences....
went for mich's arts bash last thur.... pretty entertaining and fun... haha... at least i enjoyed myself a little and i met kayjal... it was better than ntu's preview... that was kind of dulll and lack of atmosphere.... i still dun agree wth clubbing... it's not only expensive, but turns my timetable upside down...
i want one more tuition kid to earn a little more... then i can save and spend as freely... birthday next month.... so excited~ still have to go school! i seems to be getting blurrer as the days go by for school work... mug mug mug and mug....
m&v
-feelings inside ;
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
recruit express is a fraud company! how can they not pay me for my one day's work and happily tell me that it's the client who does not wish to pay me? and made me go all the way down to get the bloody timesheet signed and return to them, so that i cant get the pay? and they never even state beforehand that i wont get my pay nor did they call to inform me of it! and that bloody shannon lim happily indicated that she was not going to call me me, but since i called then might as well... BITCH! bloody Bitch. to think that i was feeling guilty for being so irresponsible. hai... just take it as retribution... just my luck. but i hope she and her supervisor burns in hell.
oh man..........
m&v
-feelings inside ;
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val lim
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