
Thursday, February 23, 2006
finally i'm blogging again after such a long while... dunno what have i been doin all this while... seems to be drifting through life, following e motion of the clock, letting seconds after seconds slip by.. slacking at home, doing volunteer work, going out with friends. i dont see the meaning in doin all these nor i feel extremely happy or what.. just this feeling of emptiness.. constantly there..
feeling a little melancholic now.. thinking about what lies in the future and what useless things have i done. my choice of further studies.. is it a wise choice to go nyp after 2 years of studies or should i follow e crowd and obtain a respectable degree?? i can imagine myself being a physiotherapist/ occupational therapist but not goin thru the education in poly and yet at e same time i'm unsure of what i really wish to study in uni. how?!? results are coming out in matter of days now and yet i have not made a decision. are we given too many choices or are we trapped by too many choices? dunno what am i typing anyway.. i just hope i will make the right choice. *cross fingers* sometimes i wish that i dont have to make decisions and take that burden? or trouble away from me. but i guess reality is still there.. oh well.. lets face it. =(
was on the phone with marco.. tt guy simply annoys the hell out of me but it's hard to stay annoyed for long because he either has to do something stupid or has a knack of cheering me up.. so what? first irritate e hell out of me den cheer me up? hmmm.. i know he will read this and have tt smug smile on his face but i dun care. it's my blog. =P haha..
went to wanjun's house on valentine's day with serene.. i guess valentine's day dont have to be for couples in love but also for good friends to celebrate their friendship. we had a good dinner and went to her house to relax and enjoy the quiet session of catching up with each other's lives. we played with the tarot cards too.. amazing how such simple things could tell your fortune. for me, it was very true except for a part which i chose to avoid believing. not that i dont believe, not that i dont wish for it to happen but basically i promised myself tt it will not happen again.
i just dont wish to be at that position. phobia? i dont know, dont wish to know. all in all, it was a good day. had fun teasing serene too..
13 feb is a day i guess e three of us wont forget simply because it's so absurd?? haha.. i feel really really bad for being penniless that day. really guilty. i dont like to feel like i owe pple smtg. i feel sooo embarrassed as this was not a treat and i have the cheek to be penniless! argh. someone shoot me! as if my day is bad enough.. my dear auntie have to visit on that day.. i was like 'god. are you playing a trick on me??' besides that two hitches.. tt night was great, quite fun in fact besides e fact tt some moron almost decided he wanna appear in the next day's obituaries and me, behind bars. at least he could buy me some flowers to save his hide but he din. so i wont forgive his relentless teasing. too bad la.
boy eat bird. bird die.
~mv~
-feelings inside ;