Feelings Within

Monday, March 28, 2005

"cuz of u.. my heart is dead
bitter n blue
and the only beat it felt is wen i first saw u
my tears were never ending, my blood was growing thin
life was never real to me but sometime last yr
you spoke to mi in whispered love n that's why ur here
nothing scares me animore ur always in my heart
i felt every breath you took even though we're apart
sometimes i get angry now dat ur there n mi here
but its comfort that i felt as i c our future thru my tears
ppl exclaim at my youth n question my love for u
with a brave smile, i answered, cuz he loves me too
Go on! get over him! that is what they said
but jux for some reason, you jux wont leave my head
i swear to them that i'd try
but all i do is cry
i'm not sure wad it is for u i felt
but whatever it is, it made my heart melt
at nite u feel my mind so much i cry myself to sleep
now thanks to you, my dreams r now for mi to keep
those eyes n smile that made mi sway
r now memories that's datz here to stay
being together, i tot made us strong
but oh boy! i'm so wrong
i wish there was something i could do or say
but i doubt u'd gif mi/consider another dae
u broke my heart n caused mi pain
but one dae, i pray, the pieces of my heart i shall regain"

edith gave this poem to me.. now looking at it.. i guess people always yearn things they cant have.. e.g. equality in love.. new toys? haha.. tml my class will goin CPIB for our learning journey.. hope it's fun and i get to learn something new since it's a LEARNing journey... after that i'm goin to acjc concert.. i feel so darn cheated.. marco told mi it is 3 hrs long and i was like "WHATTT??" imagine 3 hrs of concert sitting by urself..*faints* haiz.. who ask mi to get ticket from him? 自找的。。。nvm.. what is done cant be undone... very tempted to leave at the interval.. since i'm already独来独往。。。
haiz.. feeling very pressurised by the amount of homework piling up in my to-do list.. struggling to keep up desperately and it's really really not easy... blame it on me being so attracted to slackin... now i get what i deserve.. work work work! i cant live life without achieving anything rite?
~mv~